I am 18 and I had a really good upbringing but when I was in high school I got an older boyfriend really young and I wanted to fit in with his friends and the things they were doing. I wanted to be the person he wanted me to be. I started taking drugs and drinking a lot. My biggest problem is drinking. I left school in year 10 and things went downhill really quickly. I was hanging out with a bad crowd putting myself in situations where I was getting hurt; I was hurting the people that mattered to me the most. I ended up in hospital and that made me realise the only person I was running away from was myself. I have relapsed several times since first being hospitalized which made me feel ashamed but I knew I had to commit to my recovery and do it for myself. It is a long road. There are rough days were you feel like there is no one to turn to but I have realised there really is. People want to help you be who you want to be. You can feel so trapped when you are using, but you can be who you want to be. My biggest goal is to be happy with who I am.